A Hugglemonster will always find a way!!!

No one ever wants to admit to needing help. Sadly, in society we have been raised to believe that if we ask for help it is a sign of weakness. Well I say, screw that!! It's not and you know what? I need help!! 

My life took a series of crazy turns and ups and downs and highs and lows. I did it, I'm still doing it but I am finally to a point that I need help. I have been mentally broken and physically I'm working on it.....v  e  r  y     s  l  o  w  l  y....but I'm working on it! 

I was raised that  you never ask for help. You give help and I have loved every single minute of giving help. I would never take away my ability to help my friends or anyone in need. Ever!! That is not my nature. My nature is to help and to continue to help despite my situation. Well, I think that is where I messed up. I think. But then I made the leap of faith and I answered honestly when a friend asked me how I was doing. It wasn't a "how are you doing I'm trying to be nice" asking, it was a "how are you really? I know you have got to be going crazy, talk to me." So I did. And I felt horrible. I felt that I should have kept my mouth shut but I needed an avenue to vent and to get it out. I had spent to many years bottling things up that doing so has made me mentally crazy and bodily sick. I spoke and then another good friend after another would ask and I would tell them. Then only person, sadly that didn't have a choice, was my best friend. But even she was concerned. I never felt like the person that really anyone would pay attention to and that was okay with me. I had my few friends, my daughter, my dads and I'm okay. But when I truly started to open up I was pleasantly surprised. And for those friends I thank you. For the talks, the suggestions, the help. I thank you!!

You may take this as, here's another mom just wanting sympathy or pity. And that's fine. But remember, this is my blog to do whatever I want with it and to write what I want. And you know what? There is a mom or a person out there that happens to read my blog for the fun of it or even to get some ideas or just to know that they aren't alone. You are never alone! If you can't turn to your friends or family, then reach out to me. I have a huge heart and I will always try my best to find a way. As I said this last line, what pops into my head? Henry Hugglemonster!!! My daughter's new favorite show and I'm not going to lie, it's mine too!!! But he always says that a Hugglemonster will always find a way. He's right, you will and I will always find a way!!!