I am one lucky momma!!

It's an interesting journey being a single mom to one of the most amazing little girls I have ever met in my life. Now please understand that I am truly not being bias when I say this.  If you have ever had the opportunity to meet this little girl you would be saying the same thing.  I have so many people just in passing through everyday that are constantly telling me and her how beautiful she is, what a doll she is, oh my goodness could she be any cuter!!  The answer to this question is yes!!  Sometimes I get so overwhelmed from her and just her aura that she has several times in her short little life just taken my breath away!  I am beyond amazed that I was gifted with such a gem of a daughter.  Of course we all feel this way about our children.  They are true gifts and we should be very humbled as parents to have been chosen to received such miracles.  It truly pains me to know that I have some very wonderful people in my life that have been touched by many children but cannot have any of their own.  And then you see some "families", I do use that term loosely, that have children and should seriously been sterilized from birth!!!  I'm just saying.  Granted this is just my opinion but trust me, my opinion is widely accepted as we have seen what some of these "families" produce!  I have gone though a very tough life with having no family at the young age of 25 to becoming a mother late in life at the age of 37.  I say young age because when you reach your 20's, you are just staring to come into your own self and your own body.  You are finally entering society to make a mark if you can.  I had to do it alone.  I was devastated but I had no choice but to make it through.  I used to be strong.  I really did but with the loss of my mother, it shattered not only my world but my way of thinking.  I no longer believed in forever.  I still don't.  There is absolutely no guarantee in anything in life other than if you are born you are most definitely going to die.  That is your only guarantee in life.  Kind of sucky isn't it?  Well there you have it, it's not pretty but it's the truth.  Upon entering into the second half of my life, I was no where near thinking of being a mother.  If I needed a kid fix, I had plenty of friends.  I say second half because, well it is the second half of your life.  I have friends who have kids that are pre-teens and teens.  Hell, some are going to college or almost done!!  And here I am...with this tiny little person who looks at me as I am the universe.  Nothing I say is wrong and nothing I do is wrong.  The sun rises and sets in me.  That is just too much damn pressure for one person but here I am.  I'm her universe and she is my reason for rebuilding my foundation.  I just pray that I can make it stronger than it was before so that when she takes a tumble, I'll be there to catch her and help her.